misery

Today I felt like jumping off the bridge.
It wasn't anyone's fault.
of coarse its mine.
it would always be mine.
just dont blame others for your misery.

and oh
why dont floors open up and swallow you when you need them to?

and today I did learn one simple thing.
friendship do matters.
they made me feel better
though I've been in a very rough mood

I have to be strong.
at least for myself.
guess so (?)

ps- I always write in english when no suitable BM words can define my heartbroken.